I have an ultimate best friend, and so do you! ;3

So, the other day was probably one of the most depressing days of my life. I was sad. Like really sad. It was sadness at a whole other level because I miss my mum, I was worried about the situation I was going through with my boyfriend, the future managed to intimidate me once again and I felt really lonely (despite the fact that I was surrounded by friends the whole day). But prayer made me feel a little bit better ;)

I kept over-thinking about the fact that maybe nobody really cares about me. Maybe my friends wasn't going to be there for me when I expected them to be. At that day, at a very specific moment at that time, I started to get this jealous feeling towards people that has a best friend that they could comfortably be themselves completely; someone that wouldn't ditch them, or judge them, or make them feel bad about themselves. I really want a best friend like that. Someone I could actually call a BFF. (HA HA) but yeah, I was feeling really down about that too.

Then, as I was looking through Facebook on my phone, I came across this picture which came with a message... and it changed my mood instantly. :')

" I'm here. I love you. I don't care if you need to stay up crying all night long, I will stay with you. There's nothing you can ever do to lose my love. I will protect you until you die, and after your death I will still protect you. I am stronger than depression, and I am braver than loneliness, and nothing will ever exhaust me.   

-God" 

Nice right? :') Was this a sign? Haha. Yeah, so I realized that I ALREADY had the best friend that I've always wanted. Someone that would never leave my side, someone that was always there to listen to my worries and thoughts, someone that always made me feel good and grateful, someone that I could be with and be myself completely, someone that would never judge me for my flaws... yeah, and that someone is God. How could I not have realized this earlier? Hahah yeaaaaaaayyyyy.. God is everyone's best friend :D

^.^

Be faithful, people

Boy : I think I'm beginning to fall for another person. Can't help it, there's just too many girls that's just better out there, and my girl is just too plain.

Friend : Be content. Of course there are people out there that are greater than her. There are people more attractive. More intelligent. More caring. More loving and more fortunate. Thats life - full of temptations. But don't be deceived by all those. Because didn't you realize that they are people out there that are way better than you in every aspects, yet she still chose you.

Being grateful.

The next time you feel that God has given you a challenge you think you can't go through, think again. There's people out there that are going through much MUCH worst, okay? I know it's hard, and it makes you sick to your stomach at times when people tell you to be strong and move on, because you know what's happening to you, isn't happening to them. No matter what you're going through, good or bad, just be thankful. God has a plan for you. You may not understand, but you must have faith. Your understanding is not needed for this, just your trust. God is with us all. :)

Moment of Realisation

Due to boredom, I went on Facebook a couple of minutes ago. And the first thing I saw was this video my uncle shared, and just like that, I finally realised something--

The video was about this guy who wouldn't stop complaining about how his life sucked and he would not stop acting like he was the only one with problems. Well that was until this mysterious dude that showed up from nowhere gave him a pair of spectacles that gave him the ability to see the truth about others. To see the problems and hardships that they too are facing. And theirs was much worst.

You see, what I'm trying to say here is that everybody has problems. The world doesn't revolve around you. And life may seem unfair, but it's unfair to everyone. So it's somewhat fair somehow.

Everybody has their own problems, and most go through much tougher situations in life. So next time you see someone, anyone, offer them a smile. It could probably be the only thing that's keeping them together. Random acts of kindness are the best, because you never know how big of a deal your small help can mean to someone out there. Be kind, and appreciate the life the Lord has given you. No matter what, believe in God and never give up. ;')

P/s. Everything happens for a reason :) I've questioned my life too lately, and this video helped me to discover something important. And if it wasn't for the boredom I was suffering from, I probably wouldn't have seen that video and continued thinking that life is all bad. Coincidence? I think not ;)

I don't, can't, get it.

Some nights I wished those little things that make me doubt more, never happened. But it did. And due to my tendency of over-thinking things I should not think of, my mind is constantly filled with doubt. Negative thoughts would enter one by one, and I swear, it never leaves my mind. I never did forget anything that happened in the past, I guess I just accepted the fact that it just...happened. "Forgive and forget" - NEVER EASY. The forgiving part is simple because you forgive people simply because you want them to stay. But the forgetting part. Hmmm I swear, it never works for me because I just don't understand. 

The irony of the brain: forget things I want to remember, but remember things I want to forget. Just...great. Brain, give me some break please. My heart aches whenever I think back of what happened. And I'm not okay with it. 

*Skitzo-ish*

But HEYYY, people change and I'm strong enough to face it(I think). So, I'll just see how this story goes. Time to look forward for a better future, because the things that happened in the past, SHALL BE A LESSON. :D

Hahahahahaha what is this, ok goodnight? (Yes, I'm talking to myself)